Embrace an Eraser
I was told recently by someone special to update my blog – so here it goes. Life has felt short recently – passing me by without even blinking an eye.
Recently, I’ve been noticing a large population of pregnant women. Maybe it’s all the baby showers I’ve been invited to recently, or maybe it’s my maternal instincts finally kicking in. I know, you’re all thinking, “What? Betsy with maternal instincts?” Pretty soon you’ll see purple cows flying too. No, seriously though, I’ve been thinking to myself, did I miss the boat? Can you all just hold on a second until I catch the first phase???
I know I didn’t miss the boat and that all my crazy little dots will connect in the future…even if I don’t understand them now. I’m trusting God that things will just work out how they are suppose to be. I’m also learning that life isn’t about success, how I look, and what I have…it is about how I feel, what I am doing now, and how to follow my heart – still. I know I’ll find a life-long partner who is secure, family-orientated, religious, passionate, musically in-love with a sense of humor. I know I’ll find someone that makes me feel like life and success isn’t about crossing things off the to do list, but about having grace and fortitude to move through change, experience your own body and what it tells you, and just smile. To know that life is about how to live now and not just what needs to be done to be secure later is a major accomplishment in this human evolution.
What does security mean anyway? People work so hard to be secure now, but what if life ends tomorrow and working that hard, trying that hard never comes to fruition later? What if someone never does the things they love until later in life when it’s too late? We all need to carry a big fat eraser in our pocket and just forget about the checklist from time to time.
Yea, it’s comfortable to have plans and I really believe it is necessary, but at times, you’ve got to be loose enough to accept the curveballs life throws at you and ‘roll with the punches.’
I’ve discovered the way to determine one’s character is to see them at the difficult moments. Because plans get revised and blue prints get redrafted to accommodate the expansive garden that we all need to fulfill. Let’s all just find a good pen and roll of paper to create ideas. Let’s all never lean towards the water when a boat is sinking, and instead, grab a bucket and work on making the water move out of the boat to stay afloat.
I was told recently to 1) Do the Right Thing and 2) Live Life…so far, it has been a pretty powerful thing. At the store, if I drop something, I pick it up and put it back. If there’s a parking spot and I’ve been searching for hours but an elderly women is looking for one too, I’ll let her take it.
At the same time, I’m living life. I finally bought the $2,000 camera I’ve been dreaming about (and I’m not afraid to sleep with it at night). There is nothing like wandering the city, camera in hand, with an unknown destination. Complete bliss. Running is always good for the soul, but just different.
I’m looking forward to my trip to Europe where I can find some music that reaches right into my body and pulls my own experiences and feelings out in a soul-ripping way. I’m looking forward to different architecture and word combinations that works through me in an artistic subtle way that science or technology will never allow me to feel. I’m looking forward to feeling passion – mine and others.
People tell me that I’m too passionate. Well, so what. All pride, all external expectations, and all fears of failure goes away when people learn it is their last day living so why not be passionate about today. We are all naked whether or not we want to believe it. Surprisingly, God tells us just as our intuition tells us who people really are, no matter how hard we try to cover it up. Be secure no matter what it takes. Follow your heart – know that you have a future waiting – don’t compromise – and please, don’t ever settle. Let yourself be free. I know I am.
Recently, I’ve been noticing a large population of pregnant women. Maybe it’s all the baby showers I’ve been invited to recently, or maybe it’s my maternal instincts finally kicking in. I know, you’re all thinking, “What? Betsy with maternal instincts?” Pretty soon you’ll see purple cows flying too. No, seriously though, I’ve been thinking to myself, did I miss the boat? Can you all just hold on a second until I catch the first phase???
I know I didn’t miss the boat and that all my crazy little dots will connect in the future…even if I don’t understand them now. I’m trusting God that things will just work out how they are suppose to be. I’m also learning that life isn’t about success, how I look, and what I have…it is about how I feel, what I am doing now, and how to follow my heart – still. I know I’ll find a life-long partner who is secure, family-orientated, religious, passionate, musically in-love with a sense of humor. I know I’ll find someone that makes me feel like life and success isn’t about crossing things off the to do list, but about having grace and fortitude to move through change, experience your own body and what it tells you, and just smile. To know that life is about how to live now and not just what needs to be done to be secure later is a major accomplishment in this human evolution.
What does security mean anyway? People work so hard to be secure now, but what if life ends tomorrow and working that hard, trying that hard never comes to fruition later? What if someone never does the things they love until later in life when it’s too late? We all need to carry a big fat eraser in our pocket and just forget about the checklist from time to time.
Yea, it’s comfortable to have plans and I really believe it is necessary, but at times, you’ve got to be loose enough to accept the curveballs life throws at you and ‘roll with the punches.’
I’ve discovered the way to determine one’s character is to see them at the difficult moments. Because plans get revised and blue prints get redrafted to accommodate the expansive garden that we all need to fulfill. Let’s all just find a good pen and roll of paper to create ideas. Let’s all never lean towards the water when a boat is sinking, and instead, grab a bucket and work on making the water move out of the boat to stay afloat.
I was told recently to 1) Do the Right Thing and 2) Live Life…so far, it has been a pretty powerful thing. At the store, if I drop something, I pick it up and put it back. If there’s a parking spot and I’ve been searching for hours but an elderly women is looking for one too, I’ll let her take it.
At the same time, I’m living life. I finally bought the $2,000 camera I’ve been dreaming about (and I’m not afraid to sleep with it at night). There is nothing like wandering the city, camera in hand, with an unknown destination. Complete bliss. Running is always good for the soul, but just different.
I’m looking forward to my trip to Europe where I can find some music that reaches right into my body and pulls my own experiences and feelings out in a soul-ripping way. I’m looking forward to different architecture and word combinations that works through me in an artistic subtle way that science or technology will never allow me to feel. I’m looking forward to feeling passion – mine and others.
People tell me that I’m too passionate. Well, so what. All pride, all external expectations, and all fears of failure goes away when people learn it is their last day living so why not be passionate about today. We are all naked whether or not we want to believe it. Surprisingly, God tells us just as our intuition tells us who people really are, no matter how hard we try to cover it up. Be secure no matter what it takes. Follow your heart – know that you have a future waiting – don’t compromise – and please, don’t ever settle. Let yourself be free. I know I am.
posted by Betsy Blue at 7:17 PM
1 Comments:
You didn't miss the boat. Everything will fall in place. You are right on track.
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